Well we found out the day before Thanksgiving that the transfer was unsuccessful. This was heart breaking news for us as these were our last two embryos. When we began this process years ago I will never forget how hopeful I felt...we had 9 good quality embryos, certainly we will be parents. I know that we will be parents, but I have been having trouble dealing with why God had us go through all of this and give us such hope to have our own biological child and now after alot of time, money, emotions and hope we still wait to be parents. I am the type of person to always see the bright side of things. I feel this is one of my greatest strengths, but I feel like this past week has tested my strength more than ever. I spoke with one of my friends today and she gave me some great advice...it may not be about our journey to be parents, but about the child that we are going to be parents to...God has a child that needs us to be his or her parents. This is a great way of thinking of our situation and helping to deal with the pain that I have been feeling.
We are still on track to adopt and we are so excited to receive that call. We are also researching the option to have an egg donor and use Marcio's sperm. We have done some research and still have much more to do. I feel blessed we have options and continue to pray for strength and guidance.
